sp00kz

Torn

When I crawl into bed I\'m another person
The switch is turned off
The mask lays on the floor
And all my plastic melts away
Until I am nothing but a soul in a shell of a person
I think of ending my life as my skin grazes the sheets
The other half of me horrified
Wondering how I could honestly wish for such things
I was told as a child to never trust your first thought
For it is only what has been taught to you by society,
And your second thought is what you truly want.
However I know for sure I don\'t want to live
I don\'t want to breathe another day
And walk the same streets as everyone else
I don\'t want to see another cloud in the sky
Or feel the suns rays against my face
Everything I used to love
Now feels repetitive and old
I know that I am done on this earth
Everyone has their number of days here
And I have lived all of mine
I know that I want to just leave
But to leave the state, country, or planet, I\'m not sure.