Oh i wish my christmas was feel with joy but some how it can\'t i don\'t know if its me or them or maybe because santa gaved me the wrong present or maybe just maybe my family don\'t see eye to eye i can\'t live like this anymore one day they make me happy and one day i want to hang myself because than i won\'t have to celebrate the holidays i mean after all christmas is like a merry go around it comes and goes it dosen\'t mean anything right after all we celebrate it the same every year for once on christmas i just want the feeling to be loved i guess i wont so therefore im just a christmas star on top of a tree shinning so bright you guys can hardly see oh i wonder how christmas will be when i\'m dead i\'ll never know but i\'m gonna guess the same as it was for me.