They warned me about you.
They said you would hurt me, destroy me,
Leave me feeling lifeless.
But of course, I never listened.
I defended you,
Gave you everything that you were missing,
You took everything from me.
Scraped my insides,
And left my dry.
I knew you were different, and that’s why I loved you.
I wanted to make you feel loved, and wanted.
We became too close,
So close that I couldn’t bear to be without you.
We became more than friends, we became partners.
I called you my sister, family.
I trusted that you would never hurt me,
And so I opened myself up to you completely.
You knew my weaknesses, inside and out.
You knew how to damage me
But I never thought you actually would.
Losing a friend is hard,
But being deceived by one is even harder.
You lied, and I would forgive you.
You judged me, and I would forgive you.
You would take out your frustrations on me, and I would forgive you.
You would hit me hard when you were upset,
And still, I would forgive you,
Because I loved you.
You blamed me for your mistakes,
Because you were too weak.
And maybe we weren’t meant to be friends forever.
Maybe it was meant to be temporary.
I want to look back at our memories with fondness,
But I would be lying to myself if I did.
We both need to move on.
We need to go our separate ways.
We have to relearn the world without each other.
Thank you for teaching me the world’s greatest lesson;
Always be careful with whom you trust.
I am scared that I will never be able to trust again,
Because of you.
I will not play the victim, because I understand your pain.
And because I understand you, I will love you from a distance.
And wish you all the best, my best friend….