I knew it wasn’t true
I knew it wasn’t true and how I lied to myself
I got so good at lying that I damaged my health
I listened to the words but I couldn’t take them in
But I knew right from the start that I would never win
I became good at avoiding like the letters in the mail
I acted like a lap dog and was chasing my tail
I just went round and round never getting anywhere
It was a game of choices but it wasn’t very fair
With the goal posts always moving I just couldn’t get to score
It was constant De J’ vu because I’d done it all before
Was a never ending torture full of bitterness and pain
And it was all so very likely I’d be going there again
Its so very quiet now, no shouting round my head
And I’m finding all the silence a bit deafening instead
I’m glad to have my freedom but I didn’t like to beg
Its like trying to dance the nutcracker with a broken leg