I see the ocean waves move
across the ocean floor
And I remember how you said
I\'d always be some one you\'d adore
But no one knew
Knew the some one inside of you
I feel the cold breeze
I fall and hit my knees
The water chaps me
I see you slap me
I relive my fears
I start to scream but no one hears
Just like no one ever heard
And I rehear it, every mean word
The waves hit the ground hard
and take my breath away
I can feel u strangle me, like you did that day
The sands hard and scrapes my skin
My heart races as I remember u shove it in
Blistering wind is blowing to cold &
To fast
ocean waves sprinkle My body
With a splash
I feel your sweat drip on face
Remember you going down, just for
A taste
I despise the dark memories of all
You forced me to do
And I don\'t know how to not love u
And delete the memories of the love
In between your violence and rape
I don\'t know why I love you
My husband, why aren\'t you some
One I hate
I can\'t control the memories I miss and adore
So I sit in the ocean waves and wish
They\'d sweep me under the ocean floor