At times I reminisce the first date
Few hours at the arcade then took you home, it was idyllic
You told me you had a great time
As you said that you smiled with your eyes
It was the perfect time to go in for the kiss
I hesitated and you noticed
Took matters into your own hands, tip toed and kissed me
Soon as our lips met it was electric
The connection was nothing short of magnetic
The sparks were flying and the lightbulb in my heart ignited
Who would have thought that moment would have such a radical impact
My fears of falling would suddenly retract
Holding your waist made me feel like a king
Spent my life all alone by myself, only ever known what is like to be forsaken
My heart was yours for the taking
With that spark, have to make you mine, there is no mistaking
It ascended to a second date and consequently a third
It ascended to I love you, someone I can call mine
It\'s complex, never had someone to put first
My heart was never touched, now I\'m holding a hand other than mine
You killed my fears and etherized my thoughts
Numbed the years, I\'m no longer at a loss
Why not take a chance and take a leap of faith
The only time you\'ll shed tears is when I get down on one knee
I will put forth my best effort, the kind of love that makes you feel butterflies
I\'ll provide you with bliss my beloved valentine
I\'ll be there when you can\'t sleep at night and are conflicted
I\'ll be the shoulder to lean on when you are afflicted
Was full of insecurities until you dissipated them
Promise you I\'ll never renounce, if you do the same
You\'re the reason I smile
It has a purpose
You\'re the cause and effect that\'s for certain
I\'m in love for the first time, what a rush of dopamine
I thought I\'d never fall, but you\'re an anomaly
You are my 11:11 wish on cloud nine
As real as it\'s gonna get
But things change
Spoke the truth and then I descend from high above
And realize I don\'t need love and basketball at the same time
It was illusive putting both on the same level at the same time
Now I\'m battling new devils
Every smile was genuine
Every feeling was real
I never planned to relinquish and pulverize everything we had into pieces
Had to choose between you and ball
Stuck between a dream and the girl of my dreams and all
Ultimately decided to pursue my dream, leaving you in the dust
Now you\'re stuck with extensive scars with minimal progress to make
I never meant for this to happen
I ended it because I thought my time to play ball was passing me by and life was passing at lightning speed
And you weren\'t fully devoted to us
My excuse was we gave it our best and we couldn\'t go any further
But sometimes giving it our best isn\'t gonna make it work
And sometimes the love dies and feelings change
But this time I thought it wouldn\'t
You only live once and I thought we would live together forever
Now the only things we have left are memories
Memories
Hoping we still end up together in the end
Wishing we would see the end in unison
But now I\'m left all alone with my thoughts re-reading every text you sent me
Damn, can\'t believe all the times we shared and now I\'m smiling at history
At history
Here hoping history repeats itself
It\'s New Year\'s Eve now, my phone rings, I glance and your name is on the screen
One ring, two rings I stare at it
Three rings, four rings I hold it in my hand
Five rings, six rings goes to voicemail
About to press delete, but I hesitate and press play
You were drunk as fuck and I\'m glad I heard it
Missed the sound of your voice, prevent my smile from cracking because I hate it
Hearing that you miss me, made me feel like an asshole
But all my thoughts in my head won\'t be sedated
I guess it\'s life giving us a second chance, at least that\'s how I deciphered it
As a chance to give it another go
We can\'t go back in time, but we can change the time ahead of us
Girl they say life is an open book, for you I\'m an author, let us flip the page
Thinking about the future and how I\'ll be inspired with sage and integrate you into it
It\'s time to dissimulate that we can\'t make it happen
I know now that a little pain doesn\'t mean the end
Fight through it and we\'ll be fine
Girl it makes me happy every time when I call you mine
Here\'s another page waiting to be inked
And fixing the ache that accompany the break of a heart
But I\'m tired of all this second guessing occurring in my head
Girl don\'t let us be a thing of the past
Take my hand and we can be happy at last
Don\'t let dejection consume you
I\'m right here and I won\'t be going anywhere
I\'m here to lift the weight of your shoulder
Better late than never right?
Girl I still see potential for growth
We\'ve been through these grand ventures
Life is a beautiful journey when taking risks
What\'s the point of life without any risks involved
Lets accept the past and look within
Fast forward to the present and life couldn\'t be better
I was pain filled with demons, you were my painkiller
Every time I saw you I was paralyzed because you know it\'s a thriller
Let me right my wrongs like Bryson Tiller
The best part of the chapter has yet to be concluded
Hope the story\'s conclusion is a happy ending