I know there are things in this world that I have control of,
But my mind keeps on pondering,
It keeps on wondering
how I would have changed the past.
I know this is an impossible task,
I just wish I could go back to a place,
Where I looked in a mirror and saw a face,
Which represented me,
And only me.
The version of me which was more simplistic,
When I was slightly naive and ever so optimistic,
When I didn\'t ride a roller coaster of emotions from calm to ballistic,
When I wasn\'t another lost person, another lonely statistic.
When love was easy and never a burden,
When I didn\'t dissect the world like a surgeon.
When he tells me I am beautiful I wish I could see it,
When he tells me I am perfect I wish I can be it,
When we discuss our future I wish I could always dream it,
When he tells me her loves me uncontrollably, I pray he means it.
I feel like a shattered plate that\'s impossible to piece together,
But even with my cracks, he promises to put me back even if it takes forever.
If I can aspire such beautiful words from such a beautiful man,
Then I must not be that bad.
I guess I am my own worst enemy,
I should be making best use of this energy.
It\'s hard but each journey starts with one step at a time.
I\'m only half way of my journey and it\'s time I crossed the line.
Love thy self
Evaluate my truth worth.