What have I turned into, one of those people I promised myself I would never be influenced by, the one person most farthest from who I really am, a gossiper and preposterous liar, an unworthy hypocrite and judger, an unrighteousness false teller, I\'ve become the true definition of hell, even though I once thought of myself as only being apart of it physically, never mentally and certainly not emotionally, self proclaimed by the worst enemy my soul could ever endure, my physical self; conceit-fulness, self doubt, and pride has taken me to a place I can\'t seem to wake up from, a never ending nightmare that only wishes to swallow me whole, If I let it.... how have I become the WORLD and how do I find my true self once again?