She says my name differently than it has ever been uttered before
She shapes each letter like a carpenter shaves down cherry wood
Smooth edges, a sturdy base
When she says it out loud I feel like my name is a whole new language.
I feel like I have never heard it before
She covers my mouth with her hands and she whispers my name
Samantha, be quiet now
She covers my mouth with her mouth and silently pushes me on
Samantha, kiss me now
I could keep my mouth covered, closed all day
If she would just keep saying my name out loud
Quietly, gently, gruff, I don\'t care
I want to hear her call to me from the second I open my eyes to the minute they shut again,
And maybe after
I have bad dreams that she shuts her mouth, won\'t look at me, takes her hands off of my face
Bad dreams that she shuts the door before I can call her name out too
I think too much about her leaving me here
About her cutting up the letters of my name and saying it just like everyone else
I want her to make my name and love synonyms
I want her to remember what I would do to listen to her
Say my name over and over
Read the same poem 27 times
Sing that song I still haven\'t stopped listening to
I think I decided to fall in love with her before I ever said her name
I think I\'m still falling even though I shouldn\'t be
I think I would love to say her name a million times more
I think she says my name differently than anyone else does
Covering my mouth
Speaking loudly enough that I can\'t hear the bad dreams