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~I See~

I see. 

I see the blame, the hurt, the pain in your eyes.  The kind of eyes you say I\'m fine with, the ones you lie with, because you\'re not and you fear people will never understand.

I see.

I see the joy you create in bringing others down.  The light of your life to bring tears to stain my eyes with.  The kind of stain that is unremovable.

PERMANENT.

A permanent phrase repeated to seep into your skin that hurts you which causes you to bring others down;

But I Never Knew.

I never knew that someone like you could hurt too, but you did.  And you hurt uncontrollably. You didn\'t mean to but still... you did and still... you continue.  Even in the aftermath of your presence being gone you still hurt.

I see.

I see you at your worst when everyone tears you down yet I still sit, because I think you deserve it. 

And that\'s why you\'re gone.

Because of me.

I would sit through your pain and I never stopped your retaliation.

That\'s why you\'re gone.

You\'re gone because I was blind, but saw to sit, but never to stand up.