little lay lay

This Isn\'t About Me

In the mirror there is a girl I know.

A mean girl that confidently picks on my features to shut me down.

And.. I let her.... I know I shouldn\'t but I can\'t help but listen.  I know she\'s lying but I can\'t help to believe her.  A reflection so cruel it shatters my ability to smile.. so I cry.  Tears sting my eyes and stain my face, my mascara runs, and it ruins my makeup only for you to make it worse and ask what\'s wrong.  \"I\'m fine,\"  I say and I fake smile and \"confidently\" walk the line of life I want to end.  You ask if I\'m sure and I ignore you when I shouldn\'t have.

Gradually the day gets worse as the girls at school hungrily pick at me as I starve myself.  They eat up my happiness to boost their confidence.  At the end of the day I go to the corner of my mind and repeat all they said to numb the pain as I cut the vein and bleed. 

Outside the mirror there is a girl I know.

A shard of shattered glass.

A girl that needed a compliment to save her life but it was too late.  She cut too deep this time, but it was deep enough to relieve her emotional pain.