little lay lay

I Am

I am...... selfish, I am kind.  I am meek.  I am wild.  I am crazy, uncanny.  Indescribable, undeserving of life I am... a woman.  I get happy.  I get sad.  I get periods once a month.

But I am capable.  Capable of ending and starting it.  I am a spark.  A ray of hope for myself and anyone listening.  I make mistakes though I wish to be perfect.  Even though it\'s not possible.  I even wish to not make others so angry.  

But of course I\'ll mess it up soon and they hate me.  I am never right.  Like a child I wish to be.  So I can make a decision instead of them doing it for me.  

I am a colored woman built to stand for myself.  I am an angry woman made to fight when disrespected.  I am a lonely woman inside her own thoughts thinking up a perfect day living the next day as a holy woman.  GODSPEED.  I am the woman created.