Doll in Wonderland


Terrible choking feeling

With face burning hot and eyes full of tears

Threatening to spill

But I won\'t cry in front of you

Sometimes I forget how paper thin 

My skin really is 

When you slap my hand away 

Not even literally

Just a few cross words in my general direction

And the panic sets in

I can\'t handle being crushed by you

Your kindness set precedent for

How we interact with each other

And your bark hurts worse

I\'d rather you bite me

I feel like this is always the beginning

Of things taking a turn for the worse

Especially when your apology

Is \"I\'m sorry you feel that way\"

Instead of \"I\'m sorry I hurt you\" 

Its not that you hurt me like he did

But if you unravel me enough

I will lash out at you

Like a wild animal, trapped in a cage 

And I never want to hurt you

With my viscous, viscous words 

Severing whatever holds us together

So instead, I will burn alone