I never understood pain.
I never understood heartbreak.
Until the day you told me you were leaving
For a very long time.
You told me you had things to do,
Things to accomplish,
But without me.
Tell me this isn\'t true?
I didn\'t believe you,
I thought you were joking..
Or just exaggerating.
But you left, and my heart left with you.
But one fine day, joy touched my mouth as the sides of my cheeks began to crease
The 12 year old me,
Happy to see,
A text from her beloved father!
Oh the joy, my father!
I knew you could never disappoint me!
I had faith that you\'d come back.
After all, our birthday is on the same day,
How amazing is that.
Yet, I thought it was too good to be true,
And yes, 12 year old me was right.
Because 6 months later, what happened?
You disappeared.
Vanished from the face of the earth.
But I forgive you,
I really do.
You\'re still my father,
You still made a contribution to my life thus far.
Although you failed me as my first love
I forgive you.
And although you are not here,
With me,
I still forgive you.
You\'ve taught me some serious life lessons,
Valuable ones at that.
I\'ve learned to be more forgiving,
More sympathetic,
More emphatic,
For I cannot let the damage you\'ve caused,
Invade my entire life, you see.
Just because you\'re not around,
Does not me my life should be turned upside down,
Because of you.
I\'ll still believe in love,
in hope,
in faith.
I still believe in you,
Just get better, for my sake.
Please.
- A father\'s love never does nor does mine for you.