When you left I was 4 years old...this writing letters and shit gettn real old...you leaving caused my heart to get cold... my momma say I look like you and act like you too... it\'s crazy how you can be identical to a person you barely even knew... shit it hurts that you not here for me when I\'m feeling low... you not here for me physically, emotionally, or financially... my mom do it on her own... that\'s simply because she strong... she rewarded me for my rights and punished me for my wrongs... I remember when I was little I used to think about you all day long... it was hard growing up without you but I\'m a fighter... I got dreams and I\'m pursuing them... I want the green so let me keep grinding... Now my heart full of pain and you can see the hurt in my eyes... that\'s from all the nights that I cried... all I ever wanted was you... I wanted you to be here too... I wanted yo shoulder to lean on... I wanted to be able to hit you up with all my problems... but I guess shit just happens... all my wants became a dream and real life became a nightmare... I used to look at other kids life like that\'s not fair... how come they daddy there... and mines not here... that shit brought me to tears over and over again... finally I realized this was a battle that I was never gone win... but it was your lost because April 18th a Queen was born... but it\'s okay, there\'s no need to be sad and frown... because now I got my crown and my ten toes down