It is impossible for me to decipher
who I really am anymore
I know that I am not the trash that I have felt like too many times before
Which is good, splendid....don\'t get me wrong
I no longer have a big circle of friends
I don\'t know when a new day is beginning, let alone when the last one ends
My mind bends itself around each obstacle that lies idle in its path
I do not acknowledge my wrath as I have so well in the past
Life used to fly by me so fast
But now, it ticks by slow
Forcing me to swallow each and every minute whole
To experience everything in its entirety
The past year has seemed like five
To be alive is, for me, miraculous
I have definitely grown immensely
All of my shit, I own up to
It is all just the result of our own un-doing
We took all of the steps that we have taken
Our legs have not been individually programmed, or at least they are not supposed to be
Thinking about all of it now, in hindsight, that could very well be the reason why I have literally seen Jack swindle the shoes right off sister Joanne
It all seems like its over these days
In this Aeon of refuge and psychological warfare
All of the chairs that are built to be fit for kings have been set in the granite that outlines these very walls
The thrones of the martyrs, the shameless vandals of royalty
Without so much as a blink of an emotionless eye
The Sky speaks so many a soliloquy of temperance and tactfulness
Inspiring the gaiety behind the songs of all the birds
An entirely new concept of existence can really, truly now be heard and, also, understood
The goodness still far outweighs the bane
Naturally
Artistically
The prideful mutates into the proud
Mind waves all communicated up front and out loud
Even when they are merely rough-drafted
When they are youthful or pristine
Green is not the true color of envy
I don\'t see it having any real color at all
Like in the clouded vision of the sleep walker, me
Standing somewhere at the edge of the night
Willing and ready to take the fall
Awakening somehow, just in the nick of time
By something that lies inherently within the call of the wild.....
4/13/2012