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Destined to fly

I remember the day we met
Too young to see the danger
I didn\'t know the devil you were
That you\'d fill me with so much anger

At first you gave me comfort
Numbed me from the pain
But the light you gave me faded
Brought blackness to my veins

Your trap worked as always
I am not the only one to fall
So many friends forever gone now
No one\'s left to call

Dragged me to rock bottom
Each day a life in hell anew
Felt there was no possibility
Of breaking this dependence on you

Every day I woke
With only you on my mind
Desperate for your love
More desperate for you to die

Through time I saw you were evil
I watched you steal my soul
Each time I tried to get away
You would not let me go

Tried to scream and cry
Eventually accepted my fate
Everyone had tried to warn me
And now it was too late

Family and friends could never understand
Couldn\'t hear my silent plea
They did not want to see
The sick effect you had on me

You locked me in a cell
You made me freeze at night
Made me deceive those I loved
Made me live in constant fright

Left broken, battered, and bruised
My number of scars grew
Both physical and mental
While the number of wasted years flew

Went through the motions like a zombie
No longer did I see
Any type of future
In this world for me

You erased any shred of hope
When everyone turned their backs
Difficult to escape this dark hole and cope
Impossible to defend against your attacks

I knew no church, no God
YOU, my ultimate power
No way to know real love
I was now a rotted, dead flower

Then one day it happened
Most amazing hope one moment brings
And I decided then and there
That I would grow my wings

No longer will you take from me
Like you have stolen all these years
You will never take my life
No longer will I cry these tears

I will deal with the pain
I will swallow all my pride
I will deal with my life of rubble
I\'m prepared for this difficult ride

If it kills me to leave you
Then I will gladly die
Because with you I\'m only surviving
And I have been destined to fly

I will soar, laugh, and smile
Will breathe my life once more
I will go back to a time
Before you came knocking at my door