The stillness is hard
The emptiness is vast
Nothing is familiar
Anymore
Nothing brings joy
Any longer
Everything is muffled noise
Garbled, unable
To decipher
Looking for an identity
Trying to gasp for air
Unable to stop moving
Unable to get going
Stuck in neutral
What now?
I can\'t go back
I don\'t have the energy to go
Forward
Where are the feelings
This void is full of
Ramblings
Nothingness
I long for it
To end.
Is there no hope
No joy?
My dreams
Won\'t materialize
I\'m nothing
I\'ve been nothing
I\'ll always be nothing.
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing ...
Worth is not
Attainable
It never was
Where is God?
Inside me?
Not good
Because I\'m empty
A shell
The chaos is gone
But there is no
Relief
And there never will be.