I can\'t believe that he is still even in these pages
It\'s all so different now
We have known each other, literally, for ages
Tonight, he brought over a new light brother, a possible new friend
I can\'t just sit here and pretend I\'m not interested
Perhaps he brought me his replacement, suddenly, all these years later
I can\'t bite yet or, guaranteed, I\'ll be called a traitor
I thin that this new guy is a lot more like me
He\'s chill
I like that
My ex is way too high strung, which is why he\'s still my ex
It turns out that it really has nothing to do with all the witches with their silly hexes
It\'s just because we are just better as friends
I will always love him with all of my heart and soul
I want him to meet each and every goal that he has
I know that I will meet all of mine from now on
The part of me that gives in to human reactions such as envy and jealousy needs to go straight the fuck to Hell and stay there
His little friend may just be what I have needed for what seems like forever
But, I just cannot do the menage a trois thing
It\'s the way that I am
I don\'t at all enjoy group sex and I couldn\'t do it for sure if my ex was a part of it
I have always been a one on one kind of being
Anything otherwise just will not ever work
I don\'t want to do anything that might scare this other guy away
He asked me for my number on their way out the door
So, I guess I really need not say anything more about it here
He is not a believer of fear, which is so beautiful I can\'t even began to further explain
Denver has been calling the other one back to it, of course, so what I thought to be a loss may end up actually becoming a miraculous gain after all
I can\'t go through any more pain over my past
I just can\'t do it again
It\'s gonna be a blast, my new hay ride, for sure
It\'s like God is giving me a sign, a real one
Just in the nick of time
My co-workers have lately been sensing my emotional wreckage and it is already creating a slight rift in my new game plan
I need a man, and it\'s not my ex
I need a new host to sample my sex in it\'s newest and most pristine form
The storms will bring me to new levels of enlightenment rather than purifying my soul
Wholeness will become an entirely new animal
A beautiful, mystical, majestic beast
I have paid my dues to humanity tenfold
It\'s time to be a part of the feast once more
It\'s time for me to witness first hand what all of this struggling and tear shed has all been for
Sanctity
Peace
Requited love
As above, not below ever again......
7/23/2016