I have this theory
That the moment a person actually breaks
The moment someone\'s heart
Just cracks
Isn\'t when they find out the person they love doesn\'t care anymore
It isn\'t when that person
Leaves
Because
In my experience
Everyone leaves
Eventually
But that moment
When someone\'s heart just stops
And sinks into the ground
And they can\'t hide their broken pieces anymore...
That\'s when they realize
That it doesn\'t matter who they date...
It doesn\'t matter who buys me dinner,
It doesn\'t matter how many guys I fuck-
A blur of faces meant to erase yours-
Because none of them
Will ever be
You
It\'s that realization
That no matter who I\'m with
I never get to be with you
Ever again
And so we are left
With these memories
That cut like a knife
But are too precious to let go of
And so it seems
Love really is
The most effective form of self harm