Its Raskolnikov

Monster

Mental havoc,

Have I been locked in my brain\'s attic?

Creative disillusion,

Was I ever here or just a delusion?

Have I been part of my own thoughts\' prostitution?

 

If it killed me would you help me through?

Could you let me make my way to you?

I need a therapist,

I think the best kind would be a friend,

One who\'s just like you,

One who knows I\'m a fool and I\'m not so cool,

One who knows I can see all the hues too,

One who knows, 

All the vices of me but knows my intentions are true,

 

I have problems that I don\'t know,

But I can change cause I can grow,

And I know I don\'t deserve you,

I keep tearing this love to pieces,

Still you say, \"It\'s ok, my loving patient, my greatest displacement, my ex-lover,

I\'ll love you again cause I know you can\", 

With that love I can recover,

But I still need you cause I\'m just a man,

 

All those dangerous thoughts,

They led to fires I can\'t have lit,

And I really love you,

And I have a monster inside,

But I need you to help me find it,

That love is the fuel to my life that much I can assure,

I don\'t want to end myself anymore,

But it doesn\'t seem like I have much more in store,

 

P.S. If you have a moment please look at my previous poem, \"Again\", and give me some feedback (positive or negative). I\'d really appreciate it.