I haven\'t been me
Since March or April, somewhere around there
But, I am taking myself back
From the heathens that love to see me suffering
I am beyond fed up
Tired
Over not having shit
I\'ve been way too passive
Living in fear of other people, which never happens
Not to me
I am known to be fearless in my many approaches to living my life
Lately, I have been twisting the knife that is lodged in my spine all by myself
It\'s almost as though I have adapted to my pain in all of its forms
I don\'t even flinch now
I was given an inch that seemed open to become miles
But, as it turns out, it was an extremely piss-poor inch
A go-getter
An entrepreneur
This entire ordeal has taken me in circles
I am making a figure-eight right now
This is older than the fucking hills already
Penny-pinching my way through blood money- literally!
I\'m a donor
A loner
A broke-ass, treeless STONER
I need to become the owner of my own passage once more
Before all of these bells and whistles went off somewhere inside my head
Falling over
and over
and over
again
For
dip shit
dumb fuck
Laughable excuses for men
I have no other choice but to start doing ME again
Until I am walking bow-legged
Satiated
Fed
Loved
Iron-gloved
Ready to pounce at all times
Letting no suitable boy get away
No stone left unturned
Taking chances because I have so many of them to spare
Teaching myself not to care about the opinions of shit-eating beasts that never do a damned thing for me, let alone for themselves
I am taking back my fortress
I am here to become satiated by the right to live
I am here to love
I am here to receive as I am to give
Praise the Lord above!
I am here to learn the ancient ways of Wisdom, Honor, and Respect
I am here to help erect monuments that speak the secrets of lore
Moderation of the highest scale possible
Wanting more is not a sin, as long as it is all-inclusive....
7/17/2017