my heart is still beating so i know I am alive
but i am slowly losing the will to survive
i paste the smile firmly on my face
but watch closely for now and then it slips out of place
sometimes you see me laugh and you think i am doing fine
but i am owning it, this masquerade yes its all mine
but i am not sleeping and dying more each day
pretending that i am doing okay
my tears they never stop flowing more often in silence now
i am keeping it together trying to be strong but i just don\'t know for how long
your often look at me and think i haven\'t got a care
there she goes they say a storm with wild eyes and fiery red hair
but inside im just so broken depressed and all alone
i\'m finding no comfort in making this my home
I want to the woman i once was but she is gone forever
defeated and lost
my scars they tell a story my spirit no longer runs free
what stands before you is a empty shell of who i use to be .