I don\'t count any sheep
to fall asleep,
Instead I count the hours
You\'ve been gone,
Minutes and seconds
Sometimes too.
I keep a stop watch on my night stand,
So when I awake,
I\'ll know exactly
How long it has been,
Since you\'ve laid beside me.
I want you to know
I still sleep with your words
elegantly hanging from my ears
with one vowel
Struggling to hang on
By a single thread
Of that letter E.
I don\'t count any sheep
to fall asleep
Instead I count how many
Times my heart beats
Since you\'ve been gone,
Gasps and tears
sometimes too.
I keep your teeshirt on my bedside,
to remind myself that you were once
Very real to me,
So I don\'t forget
Our memories.
Because when the night
Crushes down on me,
I can\'t breathe,
I can\'t stand to be without you.
And I know your body
Is buried six feet deep,
But I can still feel your presence
Wrapping around me.
Every second of the day,
Every morning when I make
Your favorite breakfast.
And I know I\'ll never
Lay my eyes on your body again,
But I can\'t bring myself to erase your pictures
To erase you from my life.
To do so would be absolutely heartbreaking.
I know everyone says I\'ll find another,
But truthfully,
I know,
There is no other like you,
There is no other lover for me.
And I swear,
I can feel your arms
~wrapping around me~