I cant stand the person I used to be
That person was someone before you and me
That person was ignorant and knew nothing of the world which she lived
That person had her eyes open the moment you stepped in
You showed her how dark everything could be
You showed her the light when she thought there was nothing to see
She changed
You changed her
You made her realize how much more everything was
You made her dark thoughts become a permanent buzz
Now she\'s drunk on pessimism and anxiety and depression and self-hatred
She\'s drunk and she doesn’t want to get sober
This buzz you’ve created in her mind, she\'s grown used to it
She doesn’t mind the negative awareness that surrounds her
She thinks its who she is
She also thinks she isn’t real
She questions the life she lives and the thoughts she thinks and the religion she believes
She questions time
Is time real?
You asked her that
And now she just sits contemplating it
She just sits for hours
Tick tock tick tock
But wait is it really hours?
How can she know time is passing?
Time isn’t real is it?
Its artificial. Its man-made
But so is she
And if she is man-made then she probably isn’t real
And if she isn’t real then what’s the point?
She didn’t used to have these thoughts
You put them in her head and she cant get them out
She has changed
You have changed her
You changed her into me
You made me who I am
And I don’t know who I am without you