Dear Depression,
Remember me?
your oldest friend
your bittersweet lover?
I fondly remember
meeting you for the first time
at age 12
when my father abandoned me
leaving me here alone in the dark
at age 13 you became my only
companion the only one I could call friend.
What I have learned of sadness
and despair in its purest form
was from you depression.
At 14 you showed me
only comfort comes
from slashing my wrists
shedding my blood
to bring serenity
to silence the voices
in my mind the voices
that won\'t go to sleep.
When everyone left me alone
your encouraging voice rang in my head
\"Just end it\" \"You\'ll be pain free\"
Because of you
everywhere I go
I\'m see as a creature
an ugly creature.
At age 15 I sold my soul to you
I gave you my heart and mind
in exchange for my sanity.
in exchange for my mentality.
At age 16 I thought
you left me alone once again
I find myself in limbo
between hope and despair.
I thought I was alone again.
At 18 you came back in my life
only to taunt and torture me
like he did he told me loved me
he had a hell of a way to show it.
I was nothing to him but his puppet
and he was pulling my strings.
Because of you depression
I live each day with darkness in me
waiting to engulf me in it\'s embrace.
Depression, my depression feels
like a demon sucking every drop of life from me
leaving an empty shell in it\'s wake.
Depression makes you wonder
if your life has meaning
or is it nothing but an empty void
with no purpose
no meaning.
Now at age 20
I have let failure go
I have let despair go
I have let anger go
I have let sadness go
I have let you go depression.
Dear depression
Here I am at age 20
You don\'t own me anymore
I have embraced hope
and embraced new life
I am living life each day to the fullest.
My life now has meaning
my life now has purpose.
Dear depression
you are not welcome here anymore
Goodbye!