All these moments that should bring happiness,
bring me sadness
i keep asking myself
if I\'m depressed
I keep telling myself
I\'m not depressed
I\'m looking in the mirror, and I\'m not that impressed
I\'m sitting in the same place I was a year ago.
I haven\'t moved a bit.
Tears keep falling,
im broken, I\'m heartless, I\'m such a mess
i don\'t know how to say it out loud..
i don\'t really like talking in front of big crowds.
im trying to make my parents proud
it just never works out.
Feels like these days I don\'t have a god,
im hanging this rope up on the rod,
seconds away from hanging myself, I feel like I\'m gonna melt
I feel a way I never felt.
Im just trying to save myself
I don\'t wanna melt.
Im so cold, so cold,
they say \"you\'re so cold hearted\"
they keep trying to make me melt
taking me out my comfort zone
I feel a way I never felt.
thinking of new ways to work it out
my thoughts say \"use a belt\"
those who don\'t and even those who do know me
probably think I\'m suicidal
and to that I laugh
I laugh at all of you
because you want to be understood
but you never try to understand
you just hold my hand
and tell me you do.