Dear you, wherever you are,
It’s been a long road that you and I have travelled on.
I had a lovely time next to you but it is time to part.
In all honesty, I thought we’d make it to the end, side by side.
Though while it is different without you on my beside me,
my breath seems to come more effortlessly, without hesitation.
I no longer have to stop my heartbeat, worrying I’ll interrupt yours.
I no longer have to carry the weight of both of us on my back.
I no longer have to keep all the screams inside of myself.
All I have to do now is get through the memories,
the beautiful, damning memories. They are often too much to handle.
But though the paths we chose are different,
I hope yours leads you to beautiful things and self-discovery,
and everything else you’ve been searching for.
Just as mine has.
I needed you to get through, I truly did. So thank you.
However that is all over now. Over and done.
All we are now is dangerous for each other.
So please take this as an apology for the separation.
I couldn’t hold onto both of us any longer.
So I had to let you go.