Struggling to hold on to them
When they were young I didn\'t have it figured out
Now they are 11 and 13
I\'m still stuck not giving them what my culture thinks is right
Unable to give them a room each
Never letting him be endlessly entertained by movies and games, trying to understand how this violence can have affect the brain.
Never letting her get lost with that phone,
Like and subscribe, so much in need of fame, endless trying to explain where vanity can take the brain.
I\'m riddle with guilt, that can overtake all the positive reality I\'m trying to build. When they\'re older enough to see life for themselves now, figuring out what path to walk.
Telling them that there is only one constant fixed thing in life is; everything changes! learn from the mistakes but don\'t be afraid to make some.
They have had to split their life for the last six years, my dreams are forever changing but only time will teach them this.
The one thing for sure it\'s more me I battle with, trying to show love in a way so they don\'t get lost in the mind field of what will others think or infected with no mindfulness.
Just to clarify I still don\'t have it figured out but my shoulders stay as strong as they were.