The wait
My fate
I’ve never wanted anything so bad
Not to the point were it makes me sad
Just waiting for an answer makes me sick
Praying they’ll say yes. Now that’s my fix
Biting my tongue I try not to cry
If I’m rejected I think that ill die
I’ve never cared like this before
I can tell as this is poisoning me right to the core
I’m willing to do anything
I’m just hanging by a string
There is a pit in my stomach
The kind I get when I’m in public
That heart failing feeling
Lucky my smile is concealing
I sit by my phone calling and calling
I don’t know why but time is stalling
And I’m in such a rush
Why are they keeping it all hush
So much stress and anxiety
Its abnormal for me to give a fuck about society
My hearts racing every time I close my eyes I feel it jump
Heart beats with a thump
I’m on the edge I feel so displaced
Wow what a waste
So this is what normal feels like
Cut at just the tip of the spike
My brain is scattered
Everyone else chases me I’m not flattered
But I cant think like this
I’m literally in an abyss