I never realized how lonely I felt until I finally felt wanted
For the first time in a long time I got to get away and connect with people
But when the time came and we had to go home I was the only one not excited
I didn\'t know why until we were driving away from the only place I finally felt good
And the change in feeling was so heartbreaking I didn\'t know it was that bad until that moment
I just wanted to cry, it felt like my heart was ripped out of me and smashed into a million pieces
I had never felt more alone in my life or maybe I always felt this way
But I was just so used to the pain to the point I didn\'t even know I was in pain
I was pretending for so long that it just became the way I was
I thought I was accepting my pain and becoming stronger but all it did was sink me down deeper
I always thought I was better then I used to be until I saw the old me
The always happy with big dreams me
That me is gone now I have grown since then and faced the hardships of life
So I am going to have to shape and recreate this new me
And become the broken but happy me not the old who I used to be me.