Edward Charles McDevitt

Afraid

I\'m afraid to sleep at night, thinking I might die,

Fast and slow heart rates just part of the reason why.

Since having this pneumonia has really set me back,

What is coming next, a massive heart attack?

My heart actually will stop up to 4 beats in a row,

Daytime fast heart rate, at night very slow.

Low blood pressure is another of an issue,

I am so perplexed, not knowing what to do.

One thing is for sure, I am in no lurch,

For all I have to do is turn towards my Church.

Reverend King is awesome, his wisdom is so high,

My Faith in God has kept me  truly flying high!

For I am not afraid to Pass while I\'m asleep,

I know God and that my \"Soul\" He will keep.

Two weeks ago was fine and would do anything asked,

Now get out of breath doing something that is tasked.

I just hope the words they say turn out to be true,

Hopefully the pacemaker does what it\'s to do.

It supposedly puts the heart at a perfect rate,

Making me feel better, maybe even great.

I just want this over and completely off the shelf,

What I need to be is my really own true self.

When all is said and done, I want to be sure,

Everything is over, and there is a cure.

Putting an end to madness hoping all to cease.

Then I can rest easy and finally be at peace.