well I suppose the fact that you told me
makes it better somehow
I mean better than finding out
after years of trust
or no need to mistrust
but then being told
you being so upfront about it
so matter of fact
makes it all the more unreal
or too real
and the fact that there were two
means neither meant that much
or anything at all
to you
but then
neither did I
and if
as you tell me
I did
then the thing
with the other two
makes it even worse
so to feel fine about it
to begin to feel better
to deal with it
it would be more acceptable
easier
if I had been no more to you
than a piece of shit