Why do you think that I\'m bipolar, and have depression?
It\'s because of you, Dad!
So fucking pay attention!
You\'re the reason why I have these suicidal thoughts!
Love and affection?
Fuck that!
That\'s the one thing that I never got!
You ain\'t ever tried to build a bond!
Any hope or connection I ever had with you is fucking gone!
You haven\'t been a father to me since I was 6 years old, Dad!
What?
You don\'t like what I\'m typing?
Well too bad!
You ain\'t ever tried to see things from my fucking view!
Hell, you stood there and watched as I was being abused!
Don\'t ever try to fucking tell me that you ever cared.
Cuz when I needed you most,
You were never there!
You wont ever let me have freedom,
Because you\'re afraid that I will choose others over you.
Well I got news for you, Dad,
I fucking hate you.
That\'s the truth!
You never accepted me for who I am!
Everybody else did!
But you seem to be accepting me for what i am right now,
Cuz im fuckin dead!
You were always comparing me to others!
You always made me feel like shit!
Well, News flash Dad!
Nobody\'s perfect!
You treat me like some fucking slave!
What?
You regret the sick shit you did?
Wish you never said the things you did?
Tell it to my grave!
You fucking hate me!
You made that perfectly clear!
But I bet you wouldn\'t be treating me like this if social services were here!
You don\'t know how many times I\'ve wanted to take that blade,
And slice open my fucking wrists,
And just bleed away!
You don\'t know how many smiles I\'ve had to fake!
But what do you care?
You put that depression in me,
For Fuck\'s sake!
No sense in saying you\'re sorry, Dad.
It wont make any difference, ok?
So go ahead and cry those fake tears at my funeral.
Don\'t even bother to apologize.
It\'s not like anyone\'s gonna believe those watery lies!
You never fucking showed me love!
You only shown me hate.
Wanna take it back now?
It\'s too late.