Kat

The girl I am

This is a story about me

- the girl I am & the girl I want to be.

 

I\'m the girl right next to you,

you will not see

I\'m the girl who doesn\'t know

what to say

I\'m the girl who wants to be loved

& can\'t find love.

I\'m the girl who dreams a lot

but is too scared to follow them

I\'m the girl in the middle of the crowd

wished to be at home

I\'m the girl who wants to be everything she is not.

I\'m the girl who wants to be

BRAVE
FREE
PROUD
FUNNY

and sometimes loud.

I want to be someone who say what she thinks

and someone who believes in herself.

I\'m the girl who wants to be happy

and is it not really

even everyone think she is alright.

I\'m the girl who is not talking about her problems

till t

there solved.

I\'m the girl who cries at night

and smiles during the day.

I know its my fault.

I could be brave.

I could be proud of myself.

I could be sunshiny...

- if i wouldn\'t be that scared.

I\'m afraid of losing someone if i#m

too much me.

I\'m afraid of open up

and show who I am.

I\'m afraid of what people will think about me

and how they will see me.

Cause I\'m not thin.

not beautiful

or pretty.

I can be ugly and cruel

and sometimes not even nice.

I\'m afraid of being alone in the end.

Maybe I will never be 27

life can be harsh

and beautiful at once.

So I lie awake at night and think about all what happened to me.

All the laughs I had

all the tears I cried

all the countries I saw

and people I met

all the small things I got

and all the stuff I lost.

I had broken moments

and amzing times.

And it makes me the girl who I am

-  and the girl I never will be.