till I collapse, ill fill these note pads with notes of each narcotic relapse
sit in my room brains melting wall staring as time begins to collapse
I said id get clean but I\'m in too deep just to relax
swallow 2 more Xanax and begin to nod back
4 more tramadol maybe this time ill overdose and end it all
I feel no love just voids of hate
maybe this is meant to be my fate
either way ill kill the rest of my brain with this codeine drink
3 hrs later I\'m puking again this time it\'s in the sink
I hate life but I\'m stuck with this bitch like she\'s my wife
pharmaceutical soup is the best recipe to forget the worst parts of me