I sat down on my roof
staring at the dark blue sky
wondering if the light would ever come back
wondering if it feels hopeless too
I picked up my phone
looking for anyone willing to listen
\"do your parents know that you have a plan to kill yourself?\"
\"I don\'t have a plan. I\'m just scared that I will.\"
\"when did you plan on doing it?\"
\"I didn\'t.\"
I hung up the phone
There were no more tears
I asked the midnight blue
why it wasn\'t crying either
but it didn\'t answer me
She never told me I was going to be okay
Neither did the therapist
or my mom
or my sister
or the doctor
or the psychiatrist
How was I supposed to make it through
if no one told me I would?
It was that moment,
when I sat down on my roof,
staring at the dark blue sky
wondering if it feels hopeless too
That I learned
People can\'t train the sad into happy
They can only torment the sad into sick