Today is my birthday but I feel sad
Some how I know that it started this way
Just getting worse every year that passed
I don\'t know what\'s true, from the storys I\'ve been told. Dad wasn\'t there at the hospital or how I turned blue coughing too much, needing to be put in a tent where the air could be filtered to my needs.
Through the years it never really made sense
Picked on at school for having cheaper things
A stepdad with a false leg that replaced the first
(Not that I remember any of this time period)
Always making a point that we were our mums baggage not he\'s
The more years that went on the darker things became
Their lesson from alcohol was the aim of my game
I guess just trying to numb all of my life\'s pain
My journey has not been good or bad
It has left its printing on my heart
Right now I have the most incredible gifts
My life, my kids, a partner that understands me and people around that let me be me
I feel I\'ve gone through the tests
I\'ve sat right on the highest edge
Not caring if I take that next breath
I\'ve loved with all of my heart
Looking for the loss at the start
So from this moment I tell myself
It\'s okay when you feel so depressed
It\'s okay the love could burst your chest
Because I\'m now learning where the middle is
It\'s in the reflection of everyone else
So this next breath I take is for me and for you