Devilsadvocate

Fake happy face

I can be in a room full of people

And still feel alone

Be the life of the party

But i just want to go home

 

You may see my body 

But my soul isnt there

My heart just cries out

For someone to care

 

I need someone to talk to

But i push them away

I keep myself busy

But the thoughts all still stay

 

At night i cant sleep

I stay up and cry

Cant rid of this feeling

Believe me i try

 

My friends havent noticed

They dont seem to see

The change i can feel

Has happened to me

 

They dont see that im lonely

I hide it well i guess

The people around me

Cant see im a mess

 

All those around me

Seem happy, content

But this isnt the way

That my life was meant 

 

I watch other people

And see how happy they are

Ill get there some day

But tell me how far?

 

I envy the people 

That are living there life 

While im wondering whats quicker

Pills or a knife

 

I know deep inside

These feelings are wrong 

But i cant help but wish

I could be gone

 

Well i guess that\'s the way

That depression goes

You get good at hiding

So nobody knows

 

So i will write away my troubles 

In a place i feel safe

And continue to wear

My fake happy face.