I can be in a room full of people
And still feel alone
Be the life of the party
But i just want to go home
You may see my body
But my soul isnt there
My heart just cries out
For someone to care
I need someone to talk to
But i push them away
I keep myself busy
But the thoughts all still stay
At night i cant sleep
I stay up and cry
Cant rid of this feeling
Believe me i try
My friends havent noticed
They dont seem to see
The change i can feel
Has happened to me
They dont see that im lonely
I hide it well i guess
The people around me
Cant see im a mess
All those around me
Seem happy, content
But this isnt the way
That my life was meant
I watch other people
And see how happy they are
Ill get there some day
But tell me how far?
I envy the people
That are living there life
While im wondering whats quicker
Pills or a knife
I know deep inside
These feelings are wrong
But i cant help but wish
I could be gone
Well i guess that\'s the way
That depression goes
You get good at hiding
So nobody knows
So i will write away my troubles
In a place i feel safe
And continue to wear
My fake happy face.