How long will this last? I am finally happy
but for how long?, Everything will just fall apart
I know it will it always does!
it\'s like someone, something is lifting me up and pulling me down so hard till I crack
Even though I feel happy, there apart of me that is scared
I\'m smiling but it doesn\'t feel real
It\'s like the sun is shining but it\'s raining at the same time
Like someone is stabbing me but I carry on day to day
When will it all end for me? will I ever not be scared?
Is this all I have going for me?
Will I ever just be happy?
Or is this it?