They say being in love is like being in the ocean. And not being in love is as though you have never drank a day in your life.
So i walked to the beach and I dug and I climbed and I scraped to get into the water but it is like an invisible layer of self doubt,heartbreak and insecurity will not let me through.
all I can do is stand on the surface and look in at everyone else.
i cried mountains hoping the tears would form a pool for me to float in but they say it is not the same.
I tried to find water in others that were dehydrated and I looked for thirst in material objects and toxic quantities.
but no matter what I try I still feel like im still sitting on that rock peering in at everyone in the water.
When all I want to do is fucking drown.