I\'m glad. I\'m so glad that you grew up knowing when you were being used, so you cut him out of your life. Easy. No feelings, no nothing. You were lucky enough to know when to say no and not let your hormones lead you to do something that you\'ll regret the next day or even the next two years. I\'m happy for you truly, that you won\'t put up with \"friends with benefits\" just because you have a little hope that he feels for you, the way you feel for him. You\'re so lucky that it\'s easy for you to recognize the difference when he truly cares for you, and when you\'re about as useful as his magazines.
Saying no is so easy for you, and I\'m jealous. I\'m jealous that I let him stick his hands down my pants because it feels good and I have a crush on him, not because I care for him like a boyfriend or see it going anywhere serious. I\'m jealous that you were so content with being single, that you didn\'t mess around with the ones that weren\'t going to mean anything. I\'m even more jealous that now after all those years of waiting, with no regrets, you\'re in a healthy relationship with a great guy. And I ask myself, \"Why can\'t that be me?\" I\'m jealous that you don\'t say, \"Oh I was a sophomore and dumb. I wish I could take it back.\" Because I do. I do all of the time. I regret the guy from 6 months ago I used to get over my ex. Because it doesn\'t work and it doesn\'t help. And it\'s great until it\'s not. And it\'s not love, it\'s not real, it\'s you waking up in the morning feeling gross. You feel used and you tell yourself that you\'re dumb and you regret it. You regret it for the next year, or until there\'s a new one to regret. It\'s a cycle that a lot of us can\'t break. And I’m stuck inside of it. And I\'m jealous that it was so easy for you to avoid the damn cycle. \"Why couldn\'t I avoid the cycle?\"
I don\'t get why it was and is so easy for you. You know your worth. You don\'t need to post revealing pictures for 200 + likes, send nudes to the guy two years older just so he can give you a little bit of attention, or let him kiss your neck because you want to feel important to someone; anyone.
You see, some of us are still learning. Some of us, don\'t even know yet that we need to learn. I\'m learning to say no. I\'m teaching myself that I\'m worth more than a one night stand. I have more dignity than to be friends with benefits. I\'m rewiring my brain to THINK before the feelings and the hormones take over. It\'s hard. It\'s not easy, but it\'s so worth it.
To the girl in the back, the girl who is 15 years old and wants her senior boyfriend to care about her as much as she cares for him; it doesn\'t involve removing your clothes, or posing at a different angle to make your booty look better. You can delete that app that shrinks your hips, and whitens your teeth. You\'ve heard it a million times and let me be the one to remind you for the million and one time, \"You don\'t need to change for him. You need to change to be a better you.\"