I\'m so sorry,
my friend
for all I\'ve done
The mistakes I\'ve made
are weights
tied to each of our feet
drowning us both in an ocean
of disaster
that I caused
I\'m so sorry,
I haven\'t been myself
I\'ve been a shadow of someone else
I\'m lost
and it scares me, too
What I want
is not forgiveness
What I want
is for you to give yourself
what you deserve
I will never forgive myself
for smothering you, too
I will never forgive myself
and I don\'t want you to either
because that is not
what I deserve