I never realized how much pain I was in until I felt the blade finally break skin
I never felt more pain in my life
A small stream of blood ran down my arm
I was sad
Sad but no tears were falling
Not even a drop of salty sadness fell from my eye
This pain was different
It wasn\'t the cut that was paining me
It was the ache in my heart
The disappointment I felt in the crevice of my soul
Stabbing me over and over again
I was falling apart
I had fallen apart
Feeling nothing but..... loneliness, sadness, and nothingness
A lump in my throat
A pounding in my chest
Once again the relief I felt when the blade ran across my wrists