The one time I want to write so fucking bad and no words fall out,
When I need to express instead of lying down being depressed.
I have homework to do there\'s no time for this!
But the hammer hitting my heart, the bullet that can\'t miss, it\'s driving me insane and I wonder if this pain will go away, this pain I shouldn\'t be feeling, I\'m healthy, I\'m alive, nothing bad with my life.
I can be happy, but right now im not and there\'s no reason why and every now I\'m not expressing myself Right. I\'m not saying what I want to say because my mind is pulling blanks. Like now, I hit a wall and writting this I\'m setting myself up to fall, why I\'m trying this I have no reason at all and I can\'t continue,
Time to lie awake staring at the ceiling, that homework almost as empty and incomplete as I feel now.