Whenever I am sad I think, “there are people that have it worse”
There are people outside the bubble of my town that are dying
There are people that are raped, they’re killed, they’re abused.
There are people that need clothes, they need shelter, need food
There are people who don’t know the next meal that they can consume
And then there are people like me
Im lucky
But I don’t feel lucky
I don’t feel lucky when my dad loses his job
I don’t feel lucky when I see my mother break down
I don’t feel lucky when I feel like a burden on my family
I feel like i\'m drowning
I’m in the depths of the ocean
And I think i know how to swim
But all i am doing is kicking down
Down into the darkness, where the sun is unknown
Until I can’t even see the light
And as I toss and turn it all fades into black
I am blind in the depths of despair and everything is just black
I come home from school and take off the smile on my face
The mask on my heart
The light in my eyes
And as I lift the weight back on my shoulders, I look in the mirror and i\'m greeted by a person I don’t know
Who is she?
She is the person I was a year ago
She is the person I portray myself as
The person I strive to be
And when I scream in the mirror “WHY CAN”T I BE YOU”
Her shoulders slouch
Her smile fades
Her eyes produce tears until she collapses on the floor sobbing because the weight was just too much
She is me.