Months go by, the baby grows
I feel him move more and more
Is it normal for me to feel like he chose his name already?
Even though he is not born?
Xavier I feel like he picked even though I love the name Axel.
I hope the father takes care of him and raises an amazing man
because I no longer have will to live, for many times I asked to die.
more and more as months go by.
Selfish I know, but while everyone else lives their lives with their friends .
there is me, all alone.. crying in the corner as everyone else lives
I\'m fading away, emotionally and mentally, I don\'t matter.
Nothing I feel matters, what I think is irrelevant.
I am ugly and stupid, as I am told over and over.. They say its a joke..
Does not feel like it...
I continue for my son because he is the only reason to live, but god he deserves more
Please let me fade away?