I feel
Lost and alone
I deal
With being on my own.
It’s hard
But I do it
My heart is scared
And still I do it.
I wake up everyday
And dread what’s ahead
Obstacles in my way
Trying to knock me dead.
They knock me down
I get back on my feet
I don’t smile; only frown
I’m broken and beat.
I don’t
Want to be alone
I want
Someone to call my own.
I can’t seem
To find love
Lost in a dream
Soaring above.
I ask why,
And if this is it
Why do I try?
Why do I feel like shit?
I wish to change
The man you see
To just rearrange
Become the real me.
He’s lost inside
Been missing for years
Afraid, so he hides
Eyes filled with tears.
Afraid to step out
Into the light
Filled with doubt
Not wanting to fight.
All he does
Is run and hide
It’s because
He feels safe inside.
I can’t convince him
To step out of his hole
The light grows dim
Darkness covers his soul.
He is afraid
Of what waits for him
A high price he’s paid
And life is growing dim.
I believe
There must be more
And I deceive
Myself, but what for
Always in pain
My heart is sore
Living in vain
Asking what for?
Wanting to know why
And if love is for me
I no longer want to cry
I wish to be free.