And the time comes that you have to make a decision
You\'re in that situation that there\'s a cliff up ahead and a river behind
And you gotta choose
Are you gonna jump or are you gonna drown
And it\'s a fight or flight situation
But you can\'t flight
Not when everyone is fighting with all their might
Not when everyone is keeping up knowing their lives hang from a thin line
Knowing what you\'re here for
What you\'re fighting for
Who you\'re fighting for
So you pull that trigger and you can never go back
To the person you were
To the person they had you for
To the person you wish you could still be
And the nightmares begin
All the voices
All the screams
All the pleading eyes
All the questions why
And all you can do is cry silently
Cause you have no answer
There\'s not a logical explanation or conclusion
Cause this
This is war
And it\'s ripping souls bare without asking
Not only the souls of the ones lying dead on the cold uninviting ground
But also the ones from those who will survive
Those who will make it back in one piece
Only that\'s completely a lie
Cause that one piece isn\'t intact anymore
It has scratches and bruises and little fragments start to fall apart
For what is seen can\'t be unseen
What is heard can\'t be unheard
What is done can\'t be undone
And no one can make that little monster living inside quiet down
No one can take away that unsettling feeling that you committed one of the most fatal sins
That you took a persons\' life
And not only one, many
But you had no choice
And even though you know it
Even though no one can or will blame you for what you did
Deep inside you still feel that that\'s just a pretty facade
Cause no one pressed you to pull that trigger
Or throw that grenade
Or put that bomb
Or be part of that war
But how could you sit in your little home calmly
When people are fighting for their country
When people are volunteering to take that burden of you
To keep you safe
You couldn\'t have that
And now what you can only do anymore is pray
Pray for that war to be over
Pray for no more losses
Pray for no more tears
Pray for those demons haunting you to go away
Pray for everything to go blank and find piece of mind again
Even if it\'s just for a day or just for the night or just for a moment
So you can just feel like you\'re you again
That naive little boy locked into his perfect world
Into his bubble of happiness
Away from the big bad world
For you no longer can
And you smile wistfully when a quote from a movie you once watched comes to mind..
\'\'War does not determine who is right... only who is left...\'\'