Clinching a fist, gripping the fear to lessen the quake
Blocking the light, pleading to sleep, never to wake
Swallow the pulse, strangle the heart, hiding it all
Evading the light to enter the dark, avoiding the fall
Hating to love to cancel the hurt, to find what lasts
Shatter the glass to find the air to finally gasp
Searching for peace, for a moment with nothing, no one
Watching, listening to everything, anything hoping to drown
Catching a moment, a clinging a thought to erase the pain
Crawling through regret, a muddy mess to escape the horror
Sinking in deep, wading in waves to reach the shore
Hoping it goes, needing to escape to feel less shame
Begging for more, wanting much less, no more game